One question : Have you guys ever experienced a relationship that you guys hoping will make to the last but lastly stop so suddent without any issue or any plan. It just happen like *boooom* the next day break. Have you ?
Answer :
Yes, that whats happened to me yesterday. For the past few days, i knew something bad will happen. And by that, yes thanks god. One message have been delievered to my phone exactly as i reach to Port Dickson with my family. And it said .........
" I rasa kita patut be friend. I dah pk masak-masak "
As soon as i read that massage, i terus terlepas hand bag yang kat tangan n terus terduduk. *Speechless * for a while. I cant believe it happened. Seriusly.Then today serius no smile appears, then my mama noticed. so she ask. and to be truth i just said tuhan tengah menduga kakak. Its hard ma. So suddent my tears start to fall. I cant handle the feeling. So my mum said, "setiap yang jadi,ada hikmah nya kakak. Mungkin, ini semua dugaan untuk kakak . Bersabar la nak "
Ya Allah Ya tuhan ku, aku sangat lemah. Berikan ku kekuatan =(
Serius i had to pretend taugh even tears keep falling when i remember about him. Might think his the one for me. If he had some else after dis, i do pray for his happiness. Im too weak. I dont want to give up on this. But when the decision has been made, i cannot handle it with care. So with that, nothing can do only God knows how much i do love him, how much i did appreciate him , how much i did keep remember him thru my day, how much we shared the love , how much i did learn that its hard to handle the pain. With this, apa yang ada kat lagu page ney i paham dah maksud dia. *Bila Cinta - Lagenda Budak Setan * . Paham sangat, memang sakit.
If one day, i cant be your friend..im sorry. Its not i hate you. But i dont know how to handle because i used to love you with all of my heart . Im sorry. pls do take care your self for me. Be happy with your life and the next choosen one.
To you : Thanks for all the memories we shared. I want u to hear one last time from me, ILOVEYOU so much ='(
Take Care, Salam
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